I feel so stupid!

Turns out, this whole religion thing is really, really hard. I don't know why Lucille trusts me to do things on my own. Ahhh!!!
I keep telling her, when I sleep, that she can take over. I don't want to do this anymore, not by myself. You know what she says? Make other people do it for me! So I guess I'm doing that now.

I didn't sign up for all of this. I never did. I didn't want to be like this. But apparently I was born this way. So whatever. So be it.

I'm God.

Or, at least, something like that.

blueazalea: I need flyers made

Clergy0: Oh?

blueazalea: yeah lucille said we need to advertise. the references she made me draw look fucking ugly but I'll send them over in a bit

rainraincomeagain: I can do that. It's really easy to appeal to specific audiences-- are we going with my idea?

blueazalea: Surprisingly yes. She liked it.

remsomnia: no fucking way

remsomnia: fuck you dude i owe him 20 dollars now

rainraincomeagain: :)

Clergy0: Do you like the idea, Jessica?

blueazalea: I think you know the answer to that

rainraincomeagain: Jessica, you do know how important this is. You are the leader of this movement for a reason, might I remind you.

rainraincomeagain: We are doing this because you need us. Because this is the only way we can possibly succeed.

rainraincomeagain: We are doing this for you. Because you need us.

blueazalea: I know

Clergy0: It will all work out in the end

Clergy0: Im sure of it,, :)

remsomnia: zena's right!! besides we should get this show on the road soon. get things started before 2020 at least

rainraincomeagain: Our deadline should be Halloween, so we have a few months.

rainraincomeagain: I still need to perfect things on my end. Making sure my mother and sister don't interfere with anything has been rather hellish.

remsomnia: you and me both dude i am not ready to be legally missing LOL

remsomnia: gotta hype myself up big time before running away from home that shit is scary

remsomnia: @blueazalea youre still paying for my greyhound right.

blueazalea: Yes

remsomnia: siiick

blueazalea: Im gonna get off for the night. Ill send the stuff tomorrow.

Clergy0: Goodnight Jessica, I hope you sleep well,

blueazalea: Gn zena

This sucks.

I have to do this. I have to do this I need to keep reminding myself I HAVE TO DO THIS.

If I don't do this, everything is over forever. This is my purpose. I need to continue.

I need to be God. I need to reach the Magical World.