My body feels so sick. Constantly. I've never felt more sick. My throat feels as though there's a ton of broken, crunched up glass in it. I need to cut it open so it can all fall out. I need to fill my throat with cement.
People have been fucking BOTHERING ME. CONSTANTLY. GO AWAY I DON'T FUCKING LIKE YOU.
oh my god og my gof oh my fucking god i tried stalking zoey on social media and shes FUCKING 29>?!?!? DUDE
I LIKE. JUST TURNED 18 FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK THIS IS BAD THIS IS MY FAULT I FUCKING TRICKED HER DUDE FUCK. if i didnt fucking look like im 25 because of all this stupid fucking stress oh my goddfgfjhfh why the fuck did i do this to her why am i doing this fuck me
I can make this right
I'll block her on everything and never talk to her ever ever ever ever ever ever
it rained today. i haven't gotten dressed. my wounds are open and bleeding but at least the rain is keeping them clean. i've been laying in the field outside my grandma's house all day. she took me in when my parents died. she lives in front of a beautiful field of azaleas. it's flooded with water.
i haven't seen my grandmother in months. i don't know who took her.
i can't tell if i'm a monster. i wish i could be a computer
That fucking idiot Adam Lamb came to my home today. GO AWAY.
I stalked zoey some more because she made me feel things like no one else ever has. Apparently her best friend was a doctor who researched solisomnia, got cancer, and fucking vanished. Apparently most people who look into the doctor also vanish. Maybe I should do it too
I haven't eaten in 3 days. My life isn't falling apart because it was never whole. It has always been fractured. I've never had family. I've never had friends. Everyone who gets close to me always leaves. What am I doing wrong? Does God hate me?
i don't even know where to look