November 28-29, 2022

November 28

Ivy - this whole thing got me rethinking like religion and shit im ngl

Ivy - i remember like not being too into the concept of a god at least like a single god and i never thought hell was real
Ivy - but like
Ivy - Everything(tm)

Ivy - im hoping to kill it some time soon
Ivy - ik it's reading this
Ivy - i finally realized what's wrong with me
Ivy - my free will was a lie
Ivy - not anymore.

Ivy - im the fucking god now
Ivy - is this just a god complex idk

November 29

Ivy is at home.
She's laying down in bed, joint rolled and in her heads vents.
She's looking up into the roof. Her screen flickering on and off. She's trying to focus.

She ends up dozing off.

Ivy wakes up in her room. Something feels off. The house is still how it was before she slept, but there's something wrong. She goes outside to realize the door led to another place. The asylum she was in.

She runs over to the room she was admitted to, running past the secretary who seems to yell at her to stop.

She goes inside of her room to find that... Everything is broken. Shattered walls, glass, blood all over, torn sheets, etc.

She notices this and immediately tries to grab something to use as a weapon as the secretary runs to up the room and breaks the door open.

Ivy grabs a piece of the wood and stabs her, her blood pitch black. She runs past the secretary who is crying out in pain. It sounds extremely fake. She knows it's a trap.

She runs until she enters a random room. It leads outside, in the same place where the first Deity meeting took place. She sees Petal. Just standing there. She looks around and finds a rock which seems sharp enough to cut. She dashes towards it and tries to stab it, but she misses and heads straight to a tree, almost clipping through it. She falls a long way down before hitting a "ground". She sees a mirror, and looking through, she sees herself.

She's talking to Myla. There's something behind her, but she can't make it out. They're arguing. Ivy seems to tear up and leave the room, causing the mirror to change location. She's making something in the kitchen now. Ivy slams the mirror trying to stop her past self, before realizing this shit is just like interstellar. She decides to finally take action. She runs towards the mirror and fucking SMASHES IT. She falls on the ground of her house.

Everything is the same way it was before Ivy slept.

She gets up and sees herself.
Her eyes are darkened, black streaks coming down from her eyes, almost like it's mascara.

"Quite the mistake you've made."
The other, corrupted Ivy speaks. Her voice is a mix of a masculine and feminine voice, both pitched way differently.

"Your actions always had consequences, but did you ever care, LaFleur?"

"Get the fuck away from me. You're not real."
Ivy backs up, scared and worried.

The corrupted Ivy gets closer, grabbing Ivy by the neck.
"There was a chance to fix everything, but what have you done A-A-A-Ivory? Have you even changed anything?"
The voice is starting to get deeper. More masculine.

"I-I told you... Get the fuck away from me!"
Ivy grabs its arm and slashes it. She backs up groaning in pain, it quietly watching.

"I'm fucking tired of pretending that you're in control. I killed you years ago."

She gets up stumbling and starts to beat the shit out of her corrupted soul. She looks around the room and grabs a big and heavy book, slamming it in the head.

The lights flicker. The person on the floor isn't Ivy anymore. Their head is bleeding out regular, red blood. Ivy just stares, a sense of freedom overwhelming her.

She sleeps the rest of the night without having any weird dreams.